Second Chances Come Every Second.

I made a mistake. I didn't want to trust my Heavenly Father and was to caught up in the world. I love my boyfriend and He loves me. We made a mistake foolishly ignoring the plans Our Father in Heaven has for both of us. Going against what we believe we had relations that we knew were suppose to be for after we were married to each other. We conceived a child the test are now inconclusive of if we lost him or if he is still on his way. We have no other option at this moment than to trust in the Lord. We have realized our mistakes and are correcting our lives. We are getting back on the path that we believe our children should be reared in with parents who love and care for them. We want to be the best we can and thankfully with the Lords help and guidance we can better our lives and repent and be forgiven of all of our stupid choices.

Where does a fish keep his money?

In the riverbank. A man who was down and out on his luck told this joke to me and boy and then told us a few others after commenting how he liked the two of us together. I like us together too. It made me happy. The city was breathtaking the snow is barely falling flurries it was lovely. It is time to get to spiritual ashley and do good completely and fully as best as I can I haven't done this in a really long time. It is crazy. I am tired though I have to get up early tomorrow so I am going to sleep and hope I get a good nights sleep if I can finish this and go to sleep I am getting way distracted. Night. Sweet dreams.

It is late or early...depends on the outlook. I have to get up in a couple hours and have about an hour longer to wait till my clothes our finished. I am tired and have to be at the queens lawyer project early tomorrow. I am so excited for this I can't wait to be there even if it is just answering calls for them. 43 more minutes till I can lay down to sleep. I am going to do my stats and print my notes for interp. legal docs. so I can have it on hand to flip through to help me study. I want every done a day early cause I am going to spend the day and night with Sergio the one day we can actually spend together this week. I am done feeling sorry. I am done giving excuses. Time to start working.

What happened to the Weekend?

I mean seriously what the trickin' truck. I feel so overwhelmed literally like I am drowning in this work. My to do list is literally growing and growing. I seem to finish one thing and then 20 things seem to just pop up. I can't seem to get ahead not with everyone needing me to be there for them and not with what I need to do. Right now I feel as though I am being pushed back and forth by the ocean waves without my say. Tomorrow I won't be happy I keep pushing things till tomorrow I will have allot to do. I just can't do it all. The thing that hurts the most is that I know he needs me and I can't be there for him the way he is there for me, the way I need to be there for him, the way I want to be there. He is perfectly understanding in this though and knows that I am not choosing this at least consciously. He is patient with me. This makes me fall deeper in love. He is kind and patient. He knows my weaknesses and my strength and still finds a way to accept me. Just another day and another way he finds to amaze me.

Sunday= Church+ Lunch+ Football+ Boy

It is 12:35 a.m. This is probably going to be the habit except for tomorrow and Tuesday so maybe actually I won't end up writing my daily blah late night well I guess it is just super early. I guess I am just being super productive hahah that is one concept.
Today was a beautiful day it was sunny but a bit windy which made it chilly. I am not complaining however it was wonderful and for there to be no snow and wonderful weather in February is nothing short of a miracle. Boy came for Sunday School and Priesthood/Relief Society, he slept through Sacrament. It was nice to have him there though. He seemed to enjoy it which was nice to see because we are still trying to re-build our relationship both separately and together with our Father in Heaven. We lost something very dear to us recently and it our relationship with Him took a hit. But we are going to get it back and that means repairing our relationship with him.
After church we went and had lunch nothing special just simple Taco Bell. it was nice. I hate ordering I really do I never know what I want or what I would like to get. So we have now started having Sergio start to order for me. Not all the time and he knows what I don't like. But it is nice not to have to worry about it with every thing else going on.
The Superbowl. We watched. Giants won. Boy is a fan of the Giants and it was funny watching him scream and jump and cheer on the Big Blue.
It is now 2:35 a.m. now and I am tired I have to get up soon. SO it is off for bed for this girly night.

Date Night with The Boy

So I am doing this more about the grunt of my life. The things I would tell my best friends and do tell them most of the things but see I am dating one of my best friends (he at least pretends to care when I find really cute shoes or clothes), my other one lives in Cali ( I am on the other side of the coast in New York), and the other two are my older sisters (some things just can get awkward and somethings they just don't care to hear).
I worked today on the STJ Athletic Event Staff. I went into work thinking that I just had to work one game which was fine because I had a hard time sleeping (could not get the people in my head to shut up type of night) and I had a day date planned with The Boy. I was wrong I ended up having to work three games back to back. That was nice because of the money that it will be adding to my bank account (which for any college student is definitely a good thing). It was annoying having to work, I am still tired (more on the verge of exhaustion), but Boy understood completely and is on his way to come get me. We just turned the day date to a night date which makes me happy inside. I am not a patient person so the whole waiting for him to get here. I stopped writing because he came to get me.
....several hours later
We had dinner at Burger King and then went to the movies. We saw Chronicle but it was good and funny and really sad. We were like an hour and half early to the movies so we played on the arcade machines and he won Three balls~ one Blue and two Pink. It was super cute and the first time anyone ever won me something anything. The balls are adorable and super cute. I don't feel like writing anymore I will write tomorrow. It is late I need to sleep.